Under a month and i’ll be back in Finland enjoying the summer.
Cant Wait!!
LA is getting Already so hot that i cant handle it~! Haha
Im busy with school and friends, living each day as it would be my last here…
Because even if i know im coming back next fall, leaving my new friends is making me sad already~ 
Best wishes
M
I got today the honor of my history teacher suggesting scholars program to me, sadly i doubt my gpa is good enough, but Im pleased to know she thought so highly of me.
Life is looking better here, I have some wonderful friends.
But my housing situation is still complicated.. And the setbacks have all tumbled down on me.
But i turned a new leaf and bravely facing the world.
Its my time~
Best Wishes
M
I’m blaming this country for making my sweet tooth even worse.
Because honestly what doesn’t taste sweet in LA?
Even when i order a spicy sandwich i find it sweet.
I wish I could magically get some caramel popcorn ASAP!
But I won’t go tot the store,
because I don’t wanna eat junk all the time.
..I actually can resist my urge to go to the fast-food restaurants..
While prevailing the secrets to American lifestyle that I never knew of I tasted a corn dog for the first time in my life a couple days ago, quite interesting I was waiting for something salty and yet again I got something sweet. It did remind me of Finnish lihapiirakka(meat pie?) which i hate, so my relationship with the corn dog has not started well, but maybe I will get a surprising craving for it someday.. : )
I’m always late or running somewhere. It’s so weird, i don’t know if I’m just late getting in to the school system or is the teaching methods just kinda impossible when your a international student and forced to take 5 classes at once. My weekends are packed with tons of homework and I’m really scared what i will do when the midterms start.
A couple weeks ago i got some new Roommates. It’s been fun, but you should have hear how much they laughed when i told them i had never tasted fried chicken befre coming to Los Angeles and that you really didn’t fry any finnish dish.(other than some celebrational sweets).
It’s really a mix of cultures in our room , It’s a mix of me telling about Finland and them teaching me about American lifestyle.
But I just can’t walk at home with my shoes on, thats just so weird for me.
The more I uncover of this country the more controversy, history and question that arises. Theres a lot more to see and learn, It’s easy to admire or judge this country but I know i won’t pass my final judgement too easily before I understand all the facts.
Best wishes
M
no I’m not taking a stand in the Sisu factory controversy, only wishing for my finnish strength without this feeling of gloom and weakness.
I’ve had some amazing days, traveled to Lomita, walking at Riviera, visiting a quite different church than what I’m used to and tagging a long to a family meeting in Upland. Everyones always greeting me with such warmth~
It’s all been great fun! but I’m a little tired right now…
Most of all disappointed.
Don’t get me wrong, I love it here.
But the system just doesn’t work.
It’s like pouring water in to the desert.
Pay this and add this to the price, oh and these extra fees.
In the end you only get broken promises.
Nothing is simple, but then again.. ..life never is.
Somehow I still doubted it would be this hard.
I feel so ungrateful writing this all down, but it’s just that I’m tired fighting against injustice in everything.
Even the basics here are questionable; peace, promises, food, home and water..
I just need a little strength to get over this…
…hopefully it will all be rewarding someday.
M
I know I will change,
I know my thought’s won’t forever stay the same;
But now I wonder why I’m this silly?
I’m in Los Angeles, I have 2 textbooks on my left side and a empty icecream bowl on the right.
I’ve been procrastinating the last 2 hours and wondering over everything else.
The silly thing about my procrastinating i do other important things that are still not as important as the one i should be.
Like i might be hovering over my phone bill thats due in 2 weeks when i have a essay to finish til’ tomorrow.
So my own inability to command myself is also annoying me a lot.
But part of this dysfunctional mood is because of my surrounding.
This windy rainy day had really been stinky. This country is showing it’s twisted ways when I’m feeling the weakest.
I spent a lot of time today dreaming of the future, where it may take me. Increadibly silly as i spent the last 2 years dreaming of coming here.
This unnecessary blog post is turning in to some kind of rant…
But really, so many thing’s are falling down again and i don’t have a shelter where to go..
I think i Just need another bowl of that ice-cream, yupp thats it.
In wait for better days
M
If you don’t count me almost burning up the kitchen(even if homework is time consuming don’t multitask and do food at the same time), homework and finding classrooms being overwhelming; Im doing quite good!!
The classes seem all quite interesting and Im hoping to make some great friends. But there are some bad days when i miss home and question everything, luckily the good ones are still winning!
Today was president’s day, so it was holiday and because I’m quite good at procrastinating i did have a lot of homework to do.. But i found time to celebrate it with a excessive amount of ice-cream yum yum! And because it was a holiday i gave myself permission to walk in boring ugly clothes and no make up today~ what do u think?
Best wishes
M
I’m not forgiving you Lomita, because this little town stole a piece of my heart and i know i will never get it back.
My first moments of american life was experienced here and i met some awesome people. I know my way around here already and I’m fond of the bike i always borrow.
What will i do when i cant go as easily to whole foods and trader joe? Or get my white chocolate mocha from peets coffee?
Well i know i will survive in Santa Monica, but i just got so comfortable here. This place will always be special for me. I saw good and some bad things, but ill treasure the good forever!
Thank you~!
Bye bye
Last Sunday truly was a exiting day, saw everything from weird crabs, beautiful starfishes to nasty sea slugs.
Me & My friend Miia got guided by the awesome Renee, i truly have to thank her from the bottom of my heart!
The tide pools where filled with all these exiting creatures i had never seen and jumping around on the rocks made me feel like a little kid.
Seeing the sea taking back its own with rising tide was remarkable. The wawes got bigger and stronger washing away all the traces of people ever walking there.
I’m sad to know not more people go there because it was such a remarkable place but then again i could see the trash and destruction some left behind that i was happy too of it being a bit sheltered.
We ended the day looking at the sunset from terranea resort restaurant, for the first time i felt i had dressed in appropriate clothes. Because of course even if we where hiking earlier i had a long dress on haha~
Felt like a lost princess on the Cliffs
I like los angeles, everytime i feel down, someone will say something nice or i’ll see something fun that makes me happy. It’s still a bit true that you Get lost in the city life sometimes, but its good that there’s within a reach nature that will remind you of whats actually matters…
Im finally back in Santa Monica, settling down in my new home with my first bag of luggage~!
Have a great day & greetings from LA
<3
M
I’m crafting valentines cards already, because i need to send them out in a week already. (i just need to remember to buy those international stamps!!)
8 done!
And at least 3 more to be done!!
If someone feels like they should be getting a card you need to send me ur address, I’m too ashamed to ask for them :3
