I miss you

Theres a boy i miss, but I’m afraid if i say it out loud people will think that it’s love. It’s not love that will will destroy ones relationship, it’s love that will last forever, friendship thats stronger than time. I haven’t seen him in a long time, not since everyone started teasing us for spending every day together. I feel bad for not picking up the phone when you called or sending you a message everyday as i used to. Someday we’ll be old and talk about the good days together again, while our children and spouses are jealous of all the memories, but before that won’t you call me once or twice again?

Bill withers-Lean on me

Diary: Sun

I’m gonna make a quick diary note, just ramble about whats up? and whats happened.

First stealing  a picture from my lovely friends blog

It’s me last week while me and her were taking sun at our yard.

We were neighbours for a half a year or a bit more;
But I’m moving out with my roommate next month.
The house is getting destroyed and I’m anyway graduating next week.

The snow has melted and we have been having in southern Finland really warm and sunny days.
It’s such a huge change, you notice how the capital city has woken up.
The grey winter made everything look so ugly, so this sun is making everything look like diamonds and pearls.

I can’t stop admiring  Helsinki now,
the sun has such weird effects.

But I’m already trying for a school on the other side of the Atlantis,
Because this last winter taught me that I might not survive the next one.
Weather affects my mood a lot.


Finland became World Champions in Icehockey this year, it was awesome.
We won Sweden 6-1!!!!!!!!
So ofcourse me and my friends went to Lejonien Kultajuhlat (Lions Goldenparty)
A lot of finnish artist performed and the icehockey team came on stage.
I had my gold leaf white wine for a drink.
After that me and Kata went even out to a baar, fun night~

But yeah I didn’t have time to search for a summer job early enough and when i started i noticed most of them had been taken.
I’m on many peoples list as next choice now if someone gets sick.
Then again i have a lot of paperwork to do before fall if i get to the school i want to.

I hope everything goes good, i hope for a sunny summer and everything else awesome

xoxo
mstatic

Loyality of a Dog

I love going back to visit my parents and when i decide to stay some nights i always notice the loyality of their dog, my old bestfriend. It’s over 10 years old cranky watch dog that barks every time a stranger comes.  I lived half of it’s life with it, i wasn’t the one that usually gave it food or got it out on walks. But we always had a sister bond, we played and i gave it all the leftover food i couldn’t eat.

My big sisters moved years before me out of the house and the dog always greets them happily; but i’m the only one it wants to sit next to. It says always hi in the mornings and never leaves my the living area if i sit there.  I was the last one to move out and we where sisters, i spen my days scratshing or teasing it.(yes i had as life and did other things too) I’m happy to notice that it never forgets. or then it only remembers the treats i gave it.

Tired?

I have been really tired these past days..
i haven’t had a free day.. no weekend..

i scared the guy i liked..
i got my friends hating me..
i got my boss to hate me..

I’m skilled and i regret allot..
I mess things up allot of times cos of my shyness and something stupid called pride…

WAY TO GO

I FINALLY bought UK Elle October issue~~
AND I finally got some money today and I’m spending it like a crazy person, but then again I’m a bit crazy.

I haven’t yet got around to buy clothes, cos i know i shouldn’t.. i should save and save and all that BOOORING stuff

I WANT new clothes I NEED new clothes.
i actually went and discussed of loans today =__=

Me and my roommate had a serious talk today, it was a good thing.
I’m glad we got it sorted out.
Cos i have been seriously feeling abandoned, shes missed some important things of my life and i haven’t cared enough about her..
or actually i have been acting that way a long time so nobody could see me getting hurt..

I’m waiting for the boy to text me again this week.
I really hope he does, cos I’m feeling even more left out.

The boy i last time confessed too newer answered me.
I knew i was too late, my own feeling were already mixed too.

I should spoken about it along time ago.

My roommate was happy I was still interested in the boy from the bar , i abandon boys when i get bored.
But those boys are just boys that i know wouldn’t like the real me and I’m just with them cos im bored..

Well i should continue working even thought i just wanna surf on the internet…

Uncleaned cleaning

Well my roommates friend came over for 4-5 days.
She was fun when i wasn’t too annoyed at her

i got to know a day before she came that she would come on friday but she came here allready on thursday..

well if i try forgeting my annoyans that she can’t put her ciggs in the right place but throws them over the balcony, borrows stuff withouth asking and threw away stuff i had been saving. Oh and she rearranged our kitchen without asking.. (aka messed my system up)

well so if i foget this and that her boyfriend and she had to sleep in my bed ..then i could say it was nice that she was here.

It was nice that she volunteered to clean the kitchen, even thought she used so much thing on the weekend that it looked the same when she left..

Night Calls

My friends boyfriend texted me a long time yesterday, wanting me to go out with them..
Then he called and then he put my roommate to call me.
..Just so i would come there too..
But i was stuck at my parents house and how i ever tried to explain he didin’t understand i couldn’t get out of the house.

weird.. but yeah, he told me his friends were there and i should come there and flirt with them.
I think he fellt bad cos he didin’t let my friend go out with me yesterday, when i still had time..

But today i heard My other friend (my roommate) had yesterday kissed him too. .. O.O
I asked my friend whos hes girlfriend didin’t that feel horroble.
But she just laughed and said “actually no.”
WTH??!

Well now their at my and my roommates place, reading my books…

I hate them too…

Style statement

Today i followed my sisters shopping, it was nice spending time with them.
They just didin’t realize i was having big time wonderings..
I allways thought that Fashion is a part of what defines us.
Seppälä a shop that defines the most of the finnish people, it’s like the finnish Gap..
Everyone weres those clothes, i think their ordinary and dull.
So i try to not shop at Seppälä, cos i don’t wanna look booring.

But I admit sometimes i find clothes from there that i really like, like i really liked a hanna saren tunika.
But when i grew up i looked up to my sisters, they were my fashion icons.
They looked hot and stylish, they didin’t use seppälä clothes.

I see the people who wear seppälä from far away, their close to emo with a ordinary twist. A colourful childish hoodie and childish jeans…

So i thought it was a horroble crime for them to so casually shop there.. I myself love Mango, Zara and other stores that aren’t that usual here…

But then again i think my sisters have a own style.. allmost..
I allways thought the older one of them had a young outgoing casual business woman look, when the younger one is more like I work as a nanny and im a really nice young girl look..

Yes i might be a bit mean.. but this is just my thought’s..
I usually like more the older sisters style, but i think the younger one has a cool sweet girl style.

…Myself i have tried them all and I’m still searching for myself, so i call my style confused : D

I have tried pissis (normal party girl) to gothic, in all ways…

Messy lifestyle

I just came back home to the city..(been a couple of days at my parent’s house.. ; D)

i don’t know if what mood I’m in…
Happy to be home? YEAH!
Depressed over our flat? YEAH!

First off it smells.. WE REALLY SHOULD CLEAN!
it’s not dirty as in old food and stuff, but it’s messy; clothes here and there..

I put the food my mom gave to me on the kitchen table..
(Yes shes a sweet hearth and she gave some food to me<3)
I looked around.. WOOH!.. i bet our kitchen is unhygienic.. Again not like old food lying here and there(just some.. lol), every things just messy..

I bet my family would freak out, but not my roommates…
Her family thinks it’s cleaner then my roommates old room..LOL! x’D

Yeah and my roommate was totally gone and her phone is switched off!!
I think I’m gonna clean tomorow! make everything shiningly bright!
(i allways say that im gonna clean, but do i ever do it…(?))

But then again this is a ugly old house, shouldn’t it look ugly inside too??! xD

career vs friends? – dress incident

Career vs friends was from confessions of a shopaholic were the main person  has to choose between a beatiful dress that her dream jobs boss chose to her to wear on national tv (the beginng of her dreams) or a ugly dress she hated that her friend had shosen for her to be a brides maid in….

I said ofcourse i want the beatiful high brand dress and my friend got  super angry..   But really i wouldn’t want to be exposed infront of alot of people in a ugly dress, i would have allready complained…ALOT!

 

But my friend said it’s the same thing as choosing career or friends.. is it?

So would i make the wrong decision?