Protected: A guide to survive a Mini Kata attacks
Just had to post this, copied it from the internet.
It’s just so true:
“you eat, you’re fat.
you don’t eat, you’re a freak.
you drink, you’re an alcoholic.
you don’t drink, you’re a pussy.
you read, you’re a nerd.
you don’t read, you’re stupid.
you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker.
you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking.
you let someone in, you’re easy.
you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight.
you smoke, you think you’re cool.
you don’t smoke, you’re a loser.
you’ve had sex, you’re a slut.
you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch.
you wear make up, you’re a slag.
you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly.
you can’t please anyone. ever.”
I found those old photographs again, they remind me of all the good things.
All the frustration i have had vanished seeing our smiles.
The moments i treasurred but forgot in my own melancholy.
Even if i yesterday told you i hated it all i now realize i don’t regret a thing.
I would trade 5 years for one year with you guys!
When you keep reminding yourself.
When your stuck on that same thought.
When everything else is changing.
When you thought you wouldn’t care.
You’re hurt.
Go to hell ’61tc#’. thats right, hell is where you belong.
Great got that one out of my system.. back to something i actually care about
Had a couple of nice days in my hometown and was today shopping(didin’t buy anything tho)
Watched a lot of Supernatural with Mary, both have been running out of food. lol.
I really should go and buy some food.
Oh, Somebodys acting like his worst enemy. Becoming a thorn stuck on me…
i wont call him anymore, I’m done with it for good. I’m just giving clues to him. For that matter when i see him, i’ll be nice, i’ll act normal. But away I wont care a S#1t. 
Going to the hairdresser tomorrow/today and work.
Saturday is gonna be fun, lot’s of friends to see, Yey!
I’m so gonna be one of them that goes to the baar!!!
xoxo
mstatic
You know when you tell someone a secret and they go and tell all of their friends but it feels like their telling it to the hole world. Well i have been feeling like that about everything lately, it just seems like the walls are falling down.
So maybe i should just tell the truth to everyone, why have secrets or white lies when you can just open up and let them see everything so they don’t have to talk behind your back.
But this resolution might work or i’ll just become on of those annoying too open and embarrassing people.
That quite literally get boring pretty fast because there is nothing to figure out.
Well i got a young life time of stories, gossip, lies and crazy adventure that only 5 precedent of my friends know 50% of it all. I’m used to shielding my secrets, but one way or another lately i have been being really vulnerable.
A hard blow after another makes me wonder was it all worth it. When the walls fall in you start thinking maybe you should have built a real base.
But can you repair it anymore or do i have to start over?
Because people will get hurt, people will get made.
But i said once before that I’m a fake but I’m a original fake. I have always been a chameleon. Molding and changing thru life to fit the situation.
I’m a very private person with a very attention whore attitude?
It’s a burden already keeping it all inside.
She doesn’t know the facts?
she hates me for being unsocial.
She tells me I’m a idiot for not wanting to move.
She thinks I’m lazy and don’t like my friends.
Whats anyway up with these late questions?
when you could have asked me with u in the beginning.
It doesn’t help that u say hes coming.
It actually even more makes me wanna stay away.
The other one killed it, i got to know who he likes.
I hated him and the others.
You don’t know how i felt?
She doesn’t know how low i have been feeling.
All the things i did to try and be special.
I wanted to be.
I wasn’t good enough for him?
I wasn’t enough pretty?
I was too easy? I was too difficult?
She was so much more.
She calls me shit for not wanting to go and meet them all with her.
I don’t know if i can.
It’s a burden already keeping it all inside.
I lie a lot of white lies, i do it without noticing. These days i try to correct myself as i do it. But it has been so much worse..
-Lies- I remember my first time when I was drunk; J liked the guy we were at but only the brown haired friend liked J. E got J to go on a walk with the brown haired guy and I spent some time outside waving bye. But as I walked back in to the room I saw E and the blond guy kissing. I thought I should tell J but she didn't believe me and E denied it. The truth was irrelevant and I was a liar. Every time I went out drinking I lied to my parents. I might have gotten caught but I still lied. I doubt they would have let me go and I liked to shield my image from them. I didn’t get that easily drunk and J could ask me to play a bit drunker so we would seem cool. I learned that lying opens doors and makes a person interesting. I never knew the person we went to and just a few of them knew me afterwards. I was forgettable, uninteresting, and stranger from the country side where nothing ever happened. So I might have started dropping some white lies in my life to make it sound more interesting. I started changing myself and even lie to myself who I was. Sadly you easily get lost in your own lies, It gets hard to tell apart who you actually where.
I used to spread white lies like pollen, you asked me what i was doing i said something totally different cos it sounded more interesting. So they wouldn’t get bored with me
Maybe i just like to please people?
I just got a hour ago home, while i was walking up the stairs to our apartment i heard crying i thought it might have been my flatmate so i rushed up.
Entering our home i realized my flatmate wasn’t even home so the sound wasn’t coming from our apartment, but somebody else in the other floors..
I wonder who it was…
Today i bought baby clothes~~ My brother got a baby last week so i bought some stuff for the baby(just socks today, I bought shoes last week) and my ex boss got a baby too so i bought a gift to her baby. (the first picture a sweater and socks)
And i bought a mini dress and a top for me even without trying them..
Just cos i was annoyed at my friend, who said i should dress up extra to her party..
I was just a bit annoyed when i got told to dress up when we go out, i was ofc i always do.. -___-
My friend said no t-shirts and stuff like that..
So i bought the mini dress and a glittery t-shirt ; D
aaaand I’m gonna put em on tomorrow.. I’m a bitch sometimes..
tomorrows gonna be a expensive day shes having a b-day and were going to a restaurant, bar, ice cream, cinema And bar..
So the money i obtained realizing the Finnish civil bla bla.. had finally payed me the money they owed me will be used this week already and by Monday i will be poor again.. I will be the one crying in our house..
Aaah i just realized a dude (lets call him Mike) had to leave early to meet that girl..
I met Mike at a party, i knew him from a few years back.
But i hadn’t seen him in ages and it was kinda akward.
Hes not that hot, but hes really sweet, nice and polite.
He was always fun to be around with.
I had always had a crush on Mike and at the the bar
( we went there with friends after the party(Mike had gone there a couple of hours before))
i started making moves on him.
But then he talked to another girl and a third girl came and cried to me how his ignoring her…
How she has loved him for a couple of years AND she WILL marry him…
She has had a boyfriend for 10 years but shes willing to leave him for Mike and is as we speak behind her boyfriends back trying to flirt with him….
Sadly i crumbled there, i gave her advise.
I left my own drunken heart to cry and was nice to her.
Well she thinks I’m the nicest girl ever, i think I’m stupid..
me and Mike will newer be anything..
It’s just a stupid childhood crush anyway…
But to the main point he left the party early to the bar, one of the other guys said: “Oh you have a girl waiting?”
I didn’t realize it then but now i know it was her ( the heartbroken i will marry him girl)
the end….
xoxo
a stupid girl
