I got today the honor of my history teacher suggesting scholars program to me, sadly i doubt my gpa is good enough, but Im pleased to know she thought so highly of me.
Life is looking better here, I have some wonderful friends.
But my housing situation is still complicated.. And the setbacks have all tumbled down on me.
But i turned a new leaf and bravely facing the world.
Its my time~
Best Wishes
M
I’m gonna make a quick diary note, just ramble about whats up? and whats happened.
First stealing a picture from my lovely friends blog
It’s me last week while me and her were taking sun at our yard.
We were neighbours for a half a year or a bit more;
But I’m moving out with my roommate next month.
The house is getting destroyed and I’m anyway graduating next week.
The snow has melted and we have been having in southern Finland really warm and sunny days.
It’s such a huge change, you notice how the capital city has woken up.
The grey winter made everything look so ugly, so this sun is making everything look like diamonds and pearls.
I can’t stop admiring Helsinki now,
the sun has such weird effects.
But I’m already trying for a school on the other side of the Atlantis,
Because this last winter taught me that I might not survive the next one.
Weather affects my mood a lot.
Finland became World Champions in Icehockey this year, it was awesome.
We won Sweden 6-1!!!!!!!!
So ofcourse me and my friends went to Lejonien Kultajuhlat (Lions Goldenparty)
A lot of finnish artist performed and the icehockey team came on stage.
I had my gold leaf white wine for a drink.
After that me and Kata went even out to a baar, fun night~
But yeah I didn’t have time to search for a summer job early enough and when i started i noticed most of them had been taken.
I’m on many peoples list as next choice now if someone gets sick.
Then again i have a lot of paperwork to do before fall if i get to the school i want to.
I hope everything goes good, i hope for a sunny summer and everything else awesome
xoxo
mstatic
“Waiting hurts. Forgetting hurts. But not knowing which decision to take is the worst of suffering.”
— Paulo Coelho
I think this is a 100% true and even if you manage to do something when you are really scared; you fail to put all your effort in it.
You should forget your fears and do your best.
Even if it’s school work or a job think about who you are in the end doing it for;
not your teacher or your boss but for you’re selves.
So do what you like, what inspires you and you will succeed.
It took me a long time to realize that i even was scared and i think it’s okay to be a little bit scared.
Because it’s also a part that drives you forward,
but when i got so scared of the people who would see my work that i couldn’t do it i realized i gotta set my priorities right.
We only have one life to please ourselves. Don’t count on that one chance, live thinking there will be many.
at school making some graphic design work (picture has nothing to do with it)
It might become cool or something else..
Partying, school, hanging around, dishing and everyday life etc.
What do all these things have in common?
….The thing is that I’m bored of them all…
I don’t know why but I have been seriously down about allot of stuff…
I bet everyone’s jus thinking: get a grip off yourself…
I would just answer them, Ur misunderstanding me, it’s not like that!!
But that’s not completely true, it’s the point that they don’t understand at all.
It’s more like why should I bother, what’s the point?
Like going out to bars, I used o be really outgoing and do lots of crazy stuff…
But these days it just feels like repeating myself and I Hate repeating stuff…
So why bother?
Schools just the same every day, someday it’s just a mess and u just learn to be bored.
Subjects go on repeating themselves over and over, year after year…
I learn stuff I know I won’t need in the future and no adult knows it all anyway…
Why bother when most of it feels like a time waste!?!
The worst thing that I’m bored of I can newer say out loud; some many people could get hurt and offended of it.
It’s not that I mean harm but I’m just being honest.
I’m bored of my friends.
Everyday we sit in the cafe; we talk about the same things.
We think different; we fight the same way as always.
We suffer, we cry and we laugh.
After every chick fight we try to forget it, but it all still haunts me.
I’m bored of our nosy silence, our lack of disrespect toward each other, and our everyday life.
….But still mostly in life I guess I’m bored of myself.
at school
These guys are a big part od the mv!
Right now I’m at home, trying to get something started..!! : D Todays the big day
I dont really know what i was doing to my friends hair xD
well that’s some of the mysko/weird photos, I’m too lazy to upload normal photos x’D
We had allot of fun yesterday at the studio 
Uploading some pic’s from the studio later, this is just me dataing at the studio yesterday.
We had a photoshoot for the music video : D
Been finding some awesome songs, basically i started by listening to James Morrison but went thru related videos..
found this while listening to songs:
I need to find a song for our project!
