Sometimes i wonder why i hate you so much?
Is it written in our zodiacs?
or are you just planely annoying.
I wish it was the first one,
that we could actually work on.
But i know the truth,
Your just a b!tch.
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Just had to post this, copied it from the internet.
It’s just so true:
“you eat, you’re fat.
you don’t eat, you’re a freak.
you drink, you’re an alcoholic.
you don’t drink, you’re a pussy.
you read, you’re a nerd.
you don’t read, you’re stupid.
you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker.
you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking.
you let someone in, you’re easy.
you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight.
you smoke, you think you’re cool.
you don’t smoke, you’re a loser.
you’ve had sex, you’re a slut.
you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch.
you wear make up, you’re a slag.
you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly.
you can’t please anyone. ever.”
Annoyed.
Might be that I’m just a bit too tired and everythings bugging me.
But if people are gonna go and snook around things about my trip atleast ask me.
If there is something you think i should ask more about; i can do it.
No need to go behind my back asking people to call places.
I found those old photographs again, they remind me of all the good things.
All the frustration i have had vanished seeing our smiles.
The moments i treasurred but forgot in my own melancholy.
Even if i yesterday told you i hated it all i now realize i don’t regret a thing.
I would trade 5 years for one year with you guys!
I don’t enjoy that time anymore, those moments i treasured are shadowed.
Your sword cut me so deep that even if it healed it stings every time i see you.
Answering only the questions that please you, only doing actions that help you.
Becoming something entirely different, one of a kind moster.
I got so many bones to pick with you; That i don’t even know where to throw the first stone.
Making promises that you’ll surely break.
You forget that we will forget you by the time you wish to come here.
You are becoming a stranger.
Go to hell ’61tc#’. thats right, hell is where you belong.
Great got that one out of my system.. back to something i actually care about
Had a couple of nice days in my hometown and was today shopping(didin’t buy anything tho)
Watched a lot of Supernatural with Mary, both have been running out of food. lol.
I really should go and buy some food.
Oh, Somebodys acting like his worst enemy. Becoming a thorn stuck on me…
i wont call him anymore, I’m done with it for good. I’m just giving clues to him. For that matter when i see him, i’ll be nice, i’ll act normal. But away I wont care a S#1t. 
Going to the hairdresser tomorrow/today and work.
Saturday is gonna be fun, lot’s of friends to see, Yey!
I’m so gonna be one of them that goes to the baar!!!
xoxo
mstatic
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I have lied and changed myself multiply times. I created myself over and over.
Told people this is who i am and have been, only to create a new look later again.
I studied the style, learned the basics, failed, tried again and maybe succeded just before changing again.
I’m fake, I have allways been. I’m a original fake.
-Looks- I always looked normal, a boyish girl with grey brown hair. Annoying silent wallpaper that only talked about boring stuff and only seemed to open up with her friends. Boys were newer interested in me and everyone always wanted to be with my best friend J or her cousin E, they were blond and had breast. I had nothing to show off then a long skinny body, a boyish kid. I was newer called beautiful, pretty or cute. My height was still in normal boundaries but I was taller than most of my age. But as I got more age, my height grew and these days I’m taller than most people. When I left the town ‘for good’ feeling stupid and unwanted, I only visited it 1-3 a year trying to relive the happy days. I got 10-15 kilos more weight on my middle school days, I newer maybe got fat just chubbier. I started coloring and trying permanents and as I entered my high school I tried changing everything about me. Change myself from the outside to the inside. Cute and Pretty newer worked on me and cool is so hard to maintain. But whatever I did the same girl that had her crazy years in Hanko kept on creeping back in my thoughts.
So basically i thought changing myself would change my own thoughts… but i learned later on that thats not how to solve problems…
Exactly one month ago i was sleeping and having a slight hangover cos of a AWESOME night!
Yes i know i have allredy had my banner pic a while too, but i just newer had the time to update..
My friend Kata ( the person at the right having a ugly look in the right picture below) had her 19th B-day!
It was a awesome night, we partied at Kata and wentr out to Tigris in Inkoo.
From There we continued to a after party, where i lost Kata and started crying. (ÉMBARRASSING!)
Well we found home somewhere around 6 PM and i slept half of the next day.
Just last week a guy called and told me i had given him my number that night ( i dont remember doing that o.o…..)
His Girlfriend (!!!he hadn’t rememberd it either) had told him i held his hand too etc…….
Well it was one of the best nights in my life, i just cant even recall how i got those horroble bruises or the dude with a girlfriend..
But stuff like that just happen ; D
